IMMERSION

I've had various struggles, breakthroughs, and setbacks in this area. In adolescence I was very self conscious and preoccupied with what other people thought of me or saw of me. In college I overcame the caring of what strangers thought of me. The only people I care what they think of me now is my mom, children, and some other close friends and family. I do care how I make others feel, but not to an unhealthy extent. For instance, I treat people with kindness and try not to push their buttons. I don't offer my truth to anyone I feel it might offend or trigger. If it happens on accident, oops😬, but I don't usually dwell on it....UNLESS it happens to be someone whom I'm very close. That is precisely part of the main problem I have currently. I feel stuck and trapped in a life that no longer feels balanced with my frequency and I long for a different life. I cannot take any of them with me, and I cannot uproot my mom and kids. The decision I have to make feels like a double edge sword.