IMMERSION

i am getting the distinct feeling i need to learn something this week. it feels like i just took several steps backward its like doing amazing then wham fear fear fear. it really seems disappointing, which makes me hard on myself. been contemplating, asking universe for guidance all night trying to get a message & stay outta my head. well what came up was: believe i require more healing work, that i need to have courage: to accept (feel my feelings completely), and not be afraid of those feelings and having them. it should not make me unworthy unlovable uncomfortable to have any feelings. just need to let myself have them without being afraid to have them. i wonder why i am so scared/worried to have them probably had to do with conditioning by myself and others. has to do with unlovability which i am working on still thought i was doing ok then got hit with this. wanna believe this is not as bad as i think it is. ok gonna go breathe relax now. thanks for listening 🙏🙏🙏😥🙄💔